God is MAD!

I have to get up in 5 hours time.
But I so want to jot this down!

Thankful #206
I FOUND MY HEADSET!

If you know SE's old headset, it comes in 2 separated wires to attach together to make one.
And I FOUND BOTH!!

WEEEE!!!!!!!!

Yes, I'm being silly.
But there I was looking for one wire having already found another
(after being a little bummed how my mp3 player has actually rusted from lack of use)
but yet thinking its okay if I don't find it because its not all that important.
Then I opened a drawer and its THERE!!!!
And both still connect into one perfectly fine to my phone.

Yes, He's mad for loving me so much.
I do not deserve to be so overwhelmed with joy for finding such a small thing,
but that's how He works and its darn MAD!!!!

And since I'm on my thankful list, here's the rest of it that belonged to yesterday. 
(although I'm wasting more precious sleep time blogging!)

Thankful #207 
Awesome rainbow framing both sides of my view while on Penang bridge.
I more or less drove through a rainbow. A great reminder of God's promises.

Thankful #208
Having a driver for my 2nd drive of the day from BM to Penang and also being UB's delivery down to Straits Quay.

Thankful #209 
Having Nana give breath to my artsy side.
Oh and the 1D eye-candy was such a pleasant bonus!

=) So blessed.

Go away, emo.

The darn feeling won't go away.

A really old friend of my big brother came to visit my office as a recently hired IT director in Jabs.
Somehow in a meeting, he mentioned to send his regards to me and my boss came running over after the meeting to poke around about 'Oh, how do you know him?". =.=
I wasn't left with much of a choice but to suggest I walk over and introduce myself to this total stranger who last saw me 20 years ago. I even confessed that I don't remember him at all.
Which made my boss all excited again on what is personally, none of her business to know. *fumes*

And all he had to say was....

"The last time I saw her was at the funeral......"

Out of nowhere, that raw sinking emo feeling appeared.

Thank God, he kept it short after that and even deflected to talk about another person he's work with before.
I wouldn't have stand it if my nosy boss asked anymore questions.
Was so embarrassed at how shameless she was!

With this dark cloud hanging about, I ended up wondering harder if I remember him or any of my big brother's friends.

Flashing back to things like;
The badminton court where we had our assemblies and my big brother had his games on weekends.
The Fifth or Sixth Former's' party where I was a spoilt guest.
Chess lessons. (Which he somehow manages to pass down to his sons. Jeez.)
The canteen tables where my big brother dissected his rats and mice on weekends.
The female friends involved in that.
We even named a white mouse once before it was put in coma.
I always forget which table it was the mouse or rat died on by the time I have recess on Mondays.
In the very same canteen.


It would have been so much more easier to have met him on my own.
I would have asked a polite question or two and run for my life.
End of being nice to a stranger. And he wouldn't have had to mention the funeral.
My facial expression must have faltered at the mentioned of funeral. =.=

But I suppose I'm thankful he didn't mentioned anything about me in diapers or if he had carried me as a toddler.
Now that would have been so awkward.


It struck me that this is the first ever person I've met that knows about that past.
One that isn't family, that is.


I'm blessed with the now. With where I am. With Whom I've found I belong to.
I'm not playing the 'What-if' game. Not tonight.
Shoo, emo. Shoo.

Joy in little measures

~
Weeee, bought 10 books for less than RM50 from Times Bookfair.

~
I now know the place of a serious to die for lamb burger.
You have to be prepared for the gamey flavor though.
Still nothing that beats UB's caramelized onions.

~
IT felt like I won.
Knowing that we've done something against his ideals.
But then in the end, it isn't about any of us but about Him.

~
Only close people get rude retorts in certain cultures.
Today I was one of them.
Made me Oh-so-happy, I could have hugged!


(#202)
Weather timing. It rained a little but cleared out on the later part of yesterday's evening.

(#203)
Charlie's B. (Shortening to just initials sounds.... crude. Do laugh if you get it)
I knew from the moment we arrived, this is Your reminder.
Your promise that You will always provide for me.
Your answer when I've been so disappointed and frustrated over UB not being opened after making our way there all ravenously hungry and not knowing where else to go then.
With this, You were also reminding me to let go and let You be in control over the things I can't be in control of.
Thank you. I needed it. 

(#204)
Benana playing and giving a drum lesson in the late hours of last night.

(#205)
He made all things well this morning.

Looking forward to....

Times Bookfair

Nandos

Koh Lipe

Meeting Nana 2 out of 3 events.

Wee!!

(#201)Remembering the people I've lost this year,

makes me appreciate the ones I still have even more.

Enjoying the Message version

Romans 8:26-28

The Message (MSG)

 ^26-28Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.