There's a smile that cannot be replicate.
The smile that met me that first day of recess in my new school.
Concerned I wasn't familiar with the school system.
The same smile greeted me each time.
Those days waiting for me after school, or teaching me to knit.
The smile over the years, would change into laughter occasionally and crinkle the creases around those bright eyes.
R.I.P 5ee.
I haven't been giving the 'rightful' respect she deserves.
If you consider rightful as in being there every single night of the wake and following the procession on the last day.
I just didn't want to struggle with following the rituals this year.
There was the combo birthday party that very night she passed away.
Followed by the next night of serving in church.
Away and late enough that I had an excuse not to go to the funeral procession the next morning.
And finally it was over. Just like that.
Maybe I will regret this one day.
But for now, I like that the image of her, that I still have in my head is smiling at me.
The smile that met me that first day of recess in my new school.
Concerned I wasn't familiar with the school system.
The same smile greeted me each time.
Those days waiting for me after school, or teaching me to knit.
The smile over the years, would change into laughter occasionally and crinkle the creases around those bright eyes.
R.I.P 5ee.
I haven't been giving the 'rightful' respect she deserves.
If you consider rightful as in being there every single night of the wake and following the procession on the last day.
I just didn't want to struggle with following the rituals this year.
There was the combo birthday party that very night she passed away.
Followed by the next night of serving in church.
When I finally went on Thursday night, the corpse I saw was nothing at all like I remember her.
So I spent my Friday night board gaming.Away and late enough that I had an excuse not to go to the funeral procession the next morning.
And finally it was over. Just like that.
Maybe I will regret this one day.
But for now, I like that the image of her, that I still have in my head is smiling at me.