The drums

I'm not upset with what Hair said.
I'm grateful that he wants to protect me from bad criticism.

But this burn, this longing.
It makes me cry.

I don't understand why I am chosen to want this so badly.
And how I cannot be like anyone else that can dabble into many instruments and not doubt what they do.

So it continues to burn.
And I continue to cry as if my soul just needs a good crying over this.

Because in the meantime, Your love defends me.
In the meantime, I know Your plans are for me.
In the meantime, I will keep practicing.