The deadliest thought

Everything would cease to be so hard if I could just die.

One less fussy person in the family.

One less misfit in the cell.

One less annoying person to others.

One less stupid person in the office.

One less demanding person in the team.



You are the only One wanting me to still be here...

This long Christmas weekend

Thankfuls
For Kokoro and Kodama arriving in time for Christmas.
For the laughter that hearing 'I want to be here with you' brings.
For the warmth and kindness of people that let me hoard pillows and sleep on their sofas.
For the people that gave me the chance to go to a Christmas concert and gifted me with Story Cubes.
For the person who says 'No' loudly to teaching my new game, but does it anyway.
For that moment where jumper cables and wet wipes saved me.
For a great Christmas lunch and girly presents.
For more tea and free food.
For the choice of round LED lights.

Thoughts
Fruit cake tastes rather different as an adult.
There are epic songs I can do without.
Thoughtfulness matters.
Forgiveness is key to moving on, whether it's peppermint or fairy lights.
Love is a choice and sometimes you need a mediator for it.
I miss each and every one of them today; looking back longingly while moving on.