It's been tiring...

But I am full.
Of furlove and drums.

Hair believes I have my basic down.
And that leads to the question of when I am ready.

Which leads to me panicking, because I can't roll right into different parts just yet.
Because it's taking me forever to even just get one song right.

Fear tends to come in a downpour wherelse confidence is like a light drizzle on a sunny day.

On another matter,
Oh Hair!
It is so distracting across your forehead!

It is well

Was wading through the street barefoot today.

My jacket, bag and pants were soaked.

Had to drive Odie through the flood after all that.

Was so relieved to finally reach home.

A short holiday

I initially had slight envy to people travelling to Europe, Singapore and Myanmar.
For once I thought I wasn't maximizing my holidays well.

But turns out it's been good these five days of holiday.
Some days were even borderline awesome!

Things I manage to do:
Board games on Tuesday night!
Popiah and catch up with Bee on Wednesday!
Sleep, watched tv and eat on Thursday!
Grocery shopped on Friday!
Watched two anime movies on Friday!
Painted my nails on Friday!
Made grilled cheese and ham sandwiches on Friday!
Packed goodies and had lunch with Sonia on Saturday!
Went for GP class on Saturday.
Spent time with Rohingya kids on Saturday at the Georgetown Heritage Celebrations. They were so cute!
Went to watch Nana perform at Occupy Beach Street on Sunday morning!

Attended service on Sunday, though was a bit late rushing from Beach Street.
Lunch and board games in the afternoon!
And last but not least, watched Alice TTLG after dinner!

I'm satisfied that Friday was super productive after the non productive Thursday.

Both coloring my book and my nails made me happy.
I colored some time between Wednesday and Friday;
leaving me with one final page of my first coloring book I got from Occupy Beach Street last year. I can so start on a new one soon.
Nana was awesome as usual and there were dogs everywhere!
Hair's tight sleeved shirt that just screamed look-at-my-arm-muscles in Sunday worship was such a distraction!
And I played five board games in total, winning two and learnt three new ones. Woohoo!
The icing on the cake was definitely watching Alice Through The Looking Glass.
It's been a while since my last visit to the movie theater, and this was such an impromptu decision after board games on Sunday afternoon.

My heart is full, because my days were well spent.
I'm so thankful for the rest and for every single opportunity to enjoy myself that had came up this short holiday. Some of it which I couldn't have done without others doing it together with me.

Believing

More
I can't fathom why now when I am so busy.
When I haven't had time for a single drum date.
When I am envious of colleague's idle time,
not remembering when was the last time I was as free.
When I am not good enough to be up there.

Yet this Yes means more than just about that.
This is Yes I am surrendering the busiest day of the month to You.
This is Yes I hear You and I trust You.
This is Yes it's been a while and now it's time.

Tear infused work.

Some days some 100 lines of writing extended rules are beautiful.
Even when they are done with tears flooding down.
And on 5 hours sleep with nightmares to boot.

But for how long do I go on with this constant tears?
This constant dread of not catching up with my colleagues?
This thorn sitting on my side that distract me from my work every day, in order that she get hers done?
Is this really love? Is this really the dream job?

I don't know any more.