Today...

the ability to smile and laugh despite my crazy anxiety based antics today.

getting through my first ever meeting at work with external people.

for the people that have made a difference in different seasons of my walk of faith.

the wisdom to move on and no longer linger in the past.

the faith that carries me through day by day.

And that would be #101 til #105.

Had dinner with Jen and enjoyed myself enormously with 'updates'.

Got walking around and bought a pair of starfish earrings.

Am now just ready to retire.

Thankful of the day.

After last night, I'm renewed.
Found myself thankful yet knowing I haven't been really looking hard enough through thankful eyes.
I got around to counting my thankfuls and finally got the numbers on the right track.....
So, I'm finally hitting the 100th!!!

Thankfuls
96. 3 against 1 with US boss went well today.
So relieved.
Despite not knowing if it makes a difference, at least we have spoken up.

97. For boldness to speak.

98. The ability to absorb all the studying I've done today for a meeting tomorrow.
I swear it was like reading coded maths and it was hard but I got the hang of it in the end.
Something I haven't done for ages.

99. Double Mushroom Swiss.

100. For letting me just sit in the deafening silence after dinner.
Just to sit and not think of a single thing for that couple of minutes.
It's so rare to have that these days.

My day has been good.

Now and Then

I reread my really old entries.
And it made me smile again.
Somehow, the old me encouraged the now me.

I read through this, and it was just speaking directly to what I'm facing through now.

I laughed at this, because I just bought a new tyre and had all the rest of them swapped around today...all by myself.
And I just remembered how amused I was at the shop, because the tyre man keep asking if I was still studying as I was sooo completely clueless about tyres.

And I had so many encouraging quotes.
Like this, rereading it made me smile as music always does..and also the realization that 'hey! I can keep time now!!' Haha!

Isn't it awesome how much has changed between now and then?

Big Love

It's been a boiling week, trying to keep temper in check when spurned on by people.
It's harder to accept her temper when the ones letting her get away with it are not of the same faith.

I don't understand how 'TA AI' can be greater than His love.
Yet I am witnessing such greatness at work.
Where does that leave us with our irratic tempers?
Redeemed, it's just so wrong.



Teach me how to love like You do.
Reveal Your plans for me.
Fill my heart with thanksgiving.
Let me constantly remember where I am, there You'll be.
Deeply loved as always.

I AM BACK!

I loved having drumsticks in my hands.
Despite the knowledge that I'll probably hit him with them.
Which I did.

I loved playing both Syndy and Judy.
The monitor was crap about their beautiful voices though.

I loved my corner.
It felt good to be dropping off a little, while sermon was going on.

I loved being told that two weekends is something.
That it's noticeable when I'm not around.
I was touched to hear that.
Despite the sudden thought now that maybe that's because of my size.

I loved the chocolate cake in church today.
Reminded me of Christmas because it was baked by the same aunty who does it for her Christmas house party.

I loved being myself buying a ticket to FEVER on the condition I get a ride from slave driver.
Despite the awkward stares for such a request.

I loved being able to bless others.
Even more because it's currently a devious plan kept in secret from the slave driver.

I loved holding the heavy camera, taking lame shots.
And getting rare gems in the midst of many many blur shots.

I'm thankful for being loved so greatly today.
In the little things that happen and make my heart bursting to just pass them on.