11th Dec in Retrospect

Being taken for a ride at 148km/hour over the Penang bridge (reaching the other end in 3minutes) is something really worth remembering, reliving.
That adrenaline rush that came with it,
made all other car rides after that just 'bleah' in retrospective of that few minutes.

Went through the motions bravely.
Sneaked out for some ice cream and was late back to starting the 2nd set.
Which was just totally wicked.

In some ways it was good to watch Raymond the great jamming with the mates.
Brings me down to earth, and reminds me of the many steps I still have to take.
How its still not over. And He's not done with me.

53. I'm just glad the weekend's done with.

Updates

 Here comes my list of thankfulness for this week weaved in between what I've been up to.


So, over the weekend I had my teeth and eyes check out.
Both was stressful in its own forms but I'm glad I got them done.
No. 47 New specs arriving tomorrow!, as the ones now are overpowered by .75. Which the optometrist says could lead to headache, tired eyes and stress. I'm starting to wonder if I made the right choice of moldy green color, but it's too late. I'll only know tomorrow. Still, new things are nice!

Was hyperventilating during practice on Sunday because there was another change to the songs dynamics.
Got myself into big tiff with the slave driver, which was really really ugly even for me. But I think I was forgiven after I calmed down and was human again..
No.48 Thankful for being forgiven.
Although he let me know right in my face after, that kind of behaviour was ugly.
Sigh, I can be so bratty sometimes.

No.49 Read and watched Dawn Treader. Apparently 2D came out today, I watch 3D on Tuesday which was a darn waste of money due to the lack of 3D effects although the show was brilliant as they manage to squeeze in a lot of the adventures from the book into a 2 hour plus movie.

No.50 Dinner with friends who besides bringing good conversations to the table, distracts me from overworrying this coming Saturday.

No.51 Nandos. The right food at the right time.

No.52 Quiet moments. Am thankful that my colleagues are not analyzing my MIA from lunch this week, giving me time to calm down, refocus and unwind a little during lunch hour.

Hello Teeth!

After 3 days of brushing back and forth my teeth, I only remembered today that the proper brushing technique is suppose to be up and down.
It was weird trying to work my wrist that way. 3 years of technique is hard to break off.

I found Bubble Gum Yum! (no.46) And shared it with all my colleagues in the same sardine can.
It was fun blowing bubbles in the office this afternoon.

It was good to finally be able to bite the accompanying nuts in my nasi lemak and use my teeth to tear down KFC pieces.

The only downside to wearing retainers, which I have to bring everywhere (and not forget where I leave them), is they get a little icky after a couple of days. And I haven't found a way to clean the valleys properly yet.

I haven't gotten around to grinning like a Cheshire Cat either.

Next up, scaling and fillings.

Bits, pieces and bye-bye braces...

Been pretty busy at work last week.


Too tired and empty from my endless worrying that lead to 3 days of crying over the weekend, that somehow embarassingly escalated until it feels like I've impacted the mood of Sunday's practice as well. And instead of having ceased worrying, I'm now worried how I would be by this coming weekend.
Talk about broken.

The only pleasures I find these days are those 5 minutes (thankful no.42) right after I woke up in the morning where it feels like waking up to a brand new day with joy and I can leave everything behind. Except my brain starts processing once I get up and then the emptiness of having cried so much returns.

At least the ugly sorta thoughts have gone away (thankful no.43).

So I had my braces taken off today.
Was a gruelling two hours where at some point when they had to take the mold from my upper teeth 3 freaking times and saliva was just dripping out my mouth uncontrollably that I wanted to laugh at how gross I must have looked.

Couldn't find any Bubble Gum Yum! in the store, I hope it is still in production and sold in other places.

Helped myself to 4 Little Black Dress (thankful no.44, this is just the distraction I need) at only RM54. I find it quite a deal considering I got my first one at RM22.

Had a celebration meal at BK around 4.30pm when my 2nd appointment was all over and I have my new retainers to wear instead.
Thankfully BK was stocked at such an hour not at all like sometime last week where I drop in at around 8pm and was left speechless because they had no fries, no onion rings, thus no value meals and only beef choices left, and not even chilli or tomato sauce to take away! Sad to say the attitude and inefficiency of staff there remains the same and I would say it could lead to the failure of BK in Penang.

It was pretty pleasant just sitting outside there in the nice cloudy weather idling away an hour (thankful no.45, nice weather). Running a clearer playback on how everything in my head escalated into last weekend. And determining the guilty parties.

The retainers are kinda weird right now, it would take some getting used to.
And because my emotions are in haywire mode, I can't seems to be elated over having removed the braces.

I need to get normal people toothbrush. Yes, that line sounds weird.
How else can I say I'll miss my V-shaped special toothbrush?
And to get the tablets old people dip their dentures in.

Was fondly, forgetfully brushing harder over the old difficult parts in my mouth just now.
Trying to dig out imaginary stucked debris.
Kinda like people with amputated toe still feeling their toe exist.
Except now they aren't difficult parts and the debrises aren't there anymore.
All that's left are just my teeth.

Another phase of life (braces!) gone, another phase of life (retainers!) begins. A new beginning.
If only I can say the same for the other areas of life....

Catch ups...

So there I was on Thursday giving up on finding the jack adapter....

The darn thing pretty much sparkled on the rubber mat off my car as I opened my car door to get in on Friday afternoon.

Yes, I am pleased and thankful (#38) and right now it kinda reminds me of how often when I've given up that things fall into place.

Mudball making was...not just mudball making as I've assumed.

It was a whole lot of fun, but was a whole lot of hard work too.

Because we had to freaking mix the soil and the EM-solution by ourselves.

Thankfully there was 3 shovels, and we coincidentally had 3 guys out of our team of 8. Though they were skinny, nerdy males, at least they were gentlemen enough to take the shovels instead of leaving it to us girls to do the digging and mixing. It was however a rather dirty affair, getting all the soil evenly watered before they can overturn the soil and mix, repeating this process for quite a number of time. And the fine soil, floating up into the air everytime one of them brought the shovel up higher.

We even managed to win 2nd runner up gift hamper in being fastest to finish. It was hilarious when our supposedly tennis ball sized mudballs, turned into mexican buns 15min later because our mixture was too moist.

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I've broken one of my CS2000 springs again, and spent a lot of time agonizing on how my orthodentist was going to kill me for breaking it and prolly setting a record in doing so. I manage to call them up on Friday and set an appointment for Saturday afternoon to replace it instead of waiting for my next appointment which was suppose to be the afternoon I leave to sg.

Instead of being scolded, she told me I could take everything off next week.

(#39) Everything.

As in I'm finally freaking free from wires and what-nots in my mouth.

Most people probably grin and go 'Hurray!' upon hearing that.

I was in such a daze I didn't reacted the way I should have, which surprised her instead.

I have a week to think if I'm happy enough with how my teeth are now.

But yet, this is just what I'm talking about, things falling into places when I do not put much thought or worry into it.... in some ways surrendering to His timing.

It would mean freedom to finally eat everything and anything (bubble gum!).

It would mean not having to make sure nothing's stuck where it shouldn't be before having a proper conversation.

It would mean smiling like the cheshire cat, if my face muscles can put up with it.

Other things I'm thankful of...

40. This beautiful glowing full moon while coming out to work today.

41. A smooth day of work today, despite the predication of tons of work because of our worldwide system upgrade over the weekend.