The day after the decision was made and I was told, the silence was deafening.
The sense of people letting you go was overwhelming and still is right now.
The flood of thoughts jumbled up as I panic in talking to others... And it was hard to keep afloat, one thing at a time.
"You did good.
You spoke up all the concerns you have.
You gave timely update on what's happening on your end.
And you provided excellent support.
You are going to do well in the other division."
I don't think this letting go is any easier for him either.
But I wished he would still say something.
~
I'm going to miss this line the most.
"Control your emotions."
Because no one else has ever say it as calmly and softly as he does.
Because in his tone, it is with the intent that it's for your own well being as well, rather than just for the sake of controlling the situation.
It doesn't feel like I am harshly forced to snap out of it when he says it.
It doesn't feel like I'm an embarrassment or a shame when he says it.
~~
I have had a good boss that fought for me and fought alongside me.
I always thought of him as a best friend, a comrade in hands.
We both came in the same year and we have worked so well together.
We even went up to stage for our service award at the same time.
His generosity in Christmas gifts to everyone each year or food souvenirs from whenever he traveled was like no other bosses I have seen around.
~~~
I'm going to miss seeing his jeans fall off his waist when he sits, giving the side view just that little indecent show of skin.
I'm going to miss watching him nod off after lunch.
The things he would relentlessly tease when in friend mode, loving that my reaction would be pouty or huge in that moment but never to the extent of causing a grudge.
The daily little small things that brings on my amused giggles, titters and silly smirks.
~~~~
I lovingly said to my closer circle of colleagues;
It feels like I'm getting married off to another family.
And it sad knowing they won't be around me anymore, but at the same time we will still see each other during lunch time.
The truth is it feels like I'm losing my family.
These people I have been with for the last 12 years though some much later... are my work family.
Despite all the squabbles and quirks, they are my work family.
~~~~~
I know I won't feel this way for long.
And I know it's okay.
Just taking one for the team now.
The sense of people letting you go was overwhelming and still is right now.
The flood of thoughts jumbled up as I panic in talking to others... And it was hard to keep afloat, one thing at a time.
"You did good.
You spoke up all the concerns you have.
You gave timely update on what's happening on your end.
And you provided excellent support.
You are going to do well in the other division."
I don't think this letting go is any easier for him either.
But I wished he would still say something.
~
I'm going to miss this line the most.
"Control your emotions."
Because no one else has ever say it as calmly and softly as he does.
Because in his tone, it is with the intent that it's for your own well being as well, rather than just for the sake of controlling the situation.
It doesn't feel like I am harshly forced to snap out of it when he says it.
It doesn't feel like I'm an embarrassment or a shame when he says it.
~~
I have had a good boss that fought for me and fought alongside me.
I always thought of him as a best friend, a comrade in hands.
We both came in the same year and we have worked so well together.
We even went up to stage for our service award at the same time.
His generosity in Christmas gifts to everyone each year or food souvenirs from whenever he traveled was like no other bosses I have seen around.
~~~
I'm going to miss seeing his jeans fall off his waist when he sits, giving the side view just that little indecent show of skin.
I'm going to miss watching him nod off after lunch.
The things he would relentlessly tease when in friend mode, loving that my reaction would be pouty or huge in that moment but never to the extent of causing a grudge.
The daily little small things that brings on my amused giggles, titters and silly smirks.
~~~~
I lovingly said to my closer circle of colleagues;
It feels like I'm getting married off to another family.
And it sad knowing they won't be around me anymore, but at the same time we will still see each other during lunch time.
The truth is it feels like I'm losing my family.
These people I have been with for the last 12 years though some much later... are my work family.
Despite all the squabbles and quirks, they are my work family.
~~~~~
I know I won't feel this way for long.
And I know it's okay.
Just taking one for the team now.
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