A string of thoughts

3 hours was ridiculous.
Who spends over an hour getting one new song right?
Who in their right mind wakes someone up to get excited over a new song.
Only the slave driver would.

But you knew it was going to be this way. 

You knew he'd pushed you to your limits.

You knew this was going to be good for you.

You knew you'd be excited if there's a new song with piano on it.

That's why you wanted it.

You didn't want to miss such a moment.

And this is such a moment.

Why does the still small voice have to be right?
I revisited my old posts, to see if I'd ever vent about slave driver.
But I found this instead;

Mark the beautiful days,
forget the bad days.

To mark this day beautiful, which come to think of it I haven't done so for a long while,
I would say it's an honor to play the new song.
After all, maybe he wouldn't have done it without me. *hysterical laugh* Yes, that was my ego talking.
And it was fun. I laughed hard with the mishaps on the other songs in the set. (thankful #139 for the rarity these days)


In some ways (thankful #140), who would have known this would turn me back to the right direction?
I'm a tad anxious. And anxiousness is way better than going through the motions.
I know over and over again, with slave driver, all I want to do is strive to serve Him better.
Worship Him more. Because there's no pleasing men here. More like, this one can't be pleased. Ha!

So surely when I most need it, He knows. What I most need, He knows too.
If it's You, God. Then it's You.


Come to think of it, I'm nowhere near a 1000 things to be thankful of.
And with this season, it's even harder to come by.
But if I could find those little thankfuls, wouldn't it in some ways put me on a long string no matter how lost in space from Him I may be?
Like a kite, flying not with the wind but against it. But always dropping back to where the One who holds the string is.
That metaphor doesn't really work when He's not standing on Earth where gravity brings the kite back.
But.... yeah. A string.




An hour long string of thoughts, what this is.